Kamis, 15 Juni 2017

Nothing. Just Unimportant Thoughts in Mind.

She was alone.
Sitting and thinking about what would she do next day.
What would be happening and would she become happy with it.
She just sat quietly, starring up to the magnificent night sky, wondering someday she would become the happiest person on earth.
Dreaming about having a friend that would willingly hear her unnecessary rambling whenever she would talk to.

No, she didn't blame God at all.
She was poor but a good girl, indeed. 
She kept patiently waited, waited for the right time that God would embrace her.
Comfort her.
Let her free from everything that is burdening her shoulders.

Until, he suddenly came and sat next to her.
He was a stranger to her, startled her a little but fortunately she could bear it down.
But deep down inside her heart, she was completely happy.
She was smiling, but she hid it from him.
She would like to speak, but then he surprisingly said,

"Excuse me girl, but what problems that bring you up here?"

She became terribly shy. She just didn't know what would she say then.

"I just moved 2 days ago. To be honest I just pass this road, observe this new neighborhood for me and suddenly I see you sitting here in the middle of night. I think that's strange so I just come up."

She kept in silence. She was confused and nervous, but really, she would like to speak.
That was the first time for her getting someone asking for her situation.

"Hmm sorry, I think I disturb you. Nice to meet you so.."

"Wait! I'm sorry." she stopped him before he left. Fortunately, he came back and sat next to her again.

"I.. I just want to relax myself. I've got so much pain in the ass that was striking me these days."

"Oh," he said. He was changing his sitting position, and continued the words. "Sorry to hear that, but actually I got so."

"Are you kidding me?!" she was shocked. "I thought I'm the one."

Then..the hours passed, day changed, a lot of things were saying till they forgot about everything. Tears, laughs, they were enjoying every minute of it till they forgot to end it up and say goodbye.

"Wow, how fast the day changed, isn't it?" she smiled brightly. She was never feeling as happy as before.

"Yeah," he answered, "I think I've got my eyes puffy now, sleepy-head."

They laughed again, together.

Then, he was standing up, stretching up his arms and looking towards her.

"So, should we meet again next time?" ask him politely.

"Anytime." she smiled.

Well, that's the best days yet in her life. 
Of course her mood suddenly lifted up that encouraged her to do everything cheerfully.
Until she was remembered that she forgot to ask his name and his address.

"Oh, such a fool!" fumed her. But, that was already happened. Then, she was breathed a sigh of calmness, and thought about God has heard her prayers.

Yes, she was crying, and that were tears of joy.
She couldn't stop praise the Lord, show how gratitude she was of His mercy after such a long time waiting patiently.
Then she knew, having a friend is such a countless blessing that she couldn't even ask for more.
Then she slapped her cheek, try to convince herself that it weren't a dream.
Thank God, she said smilingly, made her believe in Him more.

God will always remember and love everyone who is remembering Him.
And also -- the ones who are patient too.
So, keep patient, then God will love you, and grant you with happiness and blessings that no men could ever give!

Senin, 12 Juni 2017

- sorry not sorry -

Hi, long time no see. I'm in a long holiday right now so I can relax myself and writing something again on this. You know, I feel like something is kinda propping up inside me, and I'm very uncomfortable with it. Many things weird are happening nowadays, and I know what I would say subsequently is not appropriate for some of you who read this, but for me, this is terribly weird and I still can't accept this and I don't even believe that (maybe) most or some of people are feel that this weird thing (for me) are such a privilege for some other people. You must be wondering about what kind of weird thing I'm talking about, right?

Hmm, believe me, I'm a little bit uncertain about what I would say after this, but, this thing is really want to explode from my mind, ugh. Asdfjgjsaj, sorry not sorry, all of you must have heard about LGBT, right? I don't want to explain about whether it is, but, you know, I'm so damn confused why there are so many people who think that LGBT is nothing matter? You may say that, "Because love doesn't consider of age, nation, color, gender, and so on. Love is feeling. Why do you give it limits?" but, gender? Like, seriously? Are you joking me? Yes, if you are a boy, you can love the other boys as brothers, not making them as your lover, i think it's a big mistake. How can you get married with someone who have the same sex as you? How can you make family, children? Then, you can say that you can get children by adopt them? Oh my, I'm sure God must be hate that. Maybe, some of you will not accept my opinion, but I do believe that I'm standing in a right way to ignore LGBT as a right thing. You may say that I don't appreciate the human rights, but LGBT? No. I thing that's such a sickness of soul that must be healed. Sorry for the bad words. If there are some LGBT people who read this, I respect you, but sorry if my opinion is not the same as you. I don't hate you, don't get me wrong. I'm just confused because I don't even find the good things from those things, I'm confused that there is some other straight people who fight for the existence of LGBT people. I believe that all of religion in this world prohibit LGBT. In my religion, God create men and women to become partners, but if you think that LGBT is a thing that is given by God, it is a "destiny", yeah, I think I agree with it, but if you are devoted to your religion, know the gospel about your religion, you must be knowing that it its wrong. and I bet you'll try to heal and avoid it.

Really, guys, I don't hate you. Fyi, I do love Queen, the greatest British Rock Band that I've ever known. You know, the lead vocalist of the band, Freddie Mercury, was a bisex. Actually I'm not really sure if he was bisex or gay, but the right thing is he was a part of LGBT. And now, he was dead because of Aids, almost 36 years ago in November. And i'm really disappointed about that. Disappointed because I cant feel the hype of Queen because I was born in the late generation, and also because he is a bisex. I was like, "why cant he only love women?" but someday when I saw the article on the internet, the article said that freddie was actually like to love and being loved by women (that's why he has an ex girlfriend and still be the best friend and the most loving person of him until his death), but when it came to "physical needs" i mean, sex, he could only enjoy it when he did it with men. And really, I was shocked. And I think, that is because of the influences of his surroundings that made him became like that. I think, becoming a celebrity isn't that good as long as we can protect ourselves from every bad influence. World of fame is "scary" and also "dangerous", you know. Sometimes it's also deceiving. Once you're trapped in the nets, you must be hard to be free.

Yes, and fortunately, I am from a country that the majority of the people are believing in a religion, Islam, that is banning LGBT a lot, because there are some surah in Alquran that are talking about the despicable thing about LGBT, and I do believe with it. Really, LGBT aren't good. That means you're disrespecting God. Don't hear the preacher of your religion if what they are talking based on their own desire, but believe them if their talks are according to the holy book of your religion. So, the right thing is, read the holy book (for Islam it is Alquran), not the preacher, cause men can do wrong.

So that's all I wanna tell. Basically I've got a deep respect if you're part of LGBT, I just can't accept it as the right thing btw. And you must have respect on my opinion too. I don't mean to share hate also, I just wanna share about my opinion. Sorry, no offended feeling, please. I hope that we all doing well, happy, and become a better person soon. Amen.

Regards,

Zahra NN

Sabtu, 10 Juni 2017

Story about my hair problem :(

Hi guys. I just wanna talk something about my problem. I think this is quite severe and disturbing me for years and i just really sad that i cant solve it til now :(

You know, my problem is about my hair. I've got really bad hairloss since i was in junior high school (maybe) i just cant remember since when but actually it has been a long time that it annoys me so bad. Eventhough it dont make me bald (oh God please dont let that happen-_-naudzubillah) but my hair keep falling and it makes my room so dirty-_- everytime i enter my room i always see the hair on the floor, the bed, oh it bothers me so much. Another problem is that my skin head is really itchy i dont know if it is because of dandruffs but when i see my skin head closer i just didnt find them. Yes i had them before really bad but now fortunately it is gone. But im not really sure i dont know. I just afraid that they still there -_- thats why i was confused whenever i chose sort of shampoo products--is it for reducing hairloss or dandruffs.

And yesterday, i was going to the GC with my family and attending the Anne Avantie's batik fair and when my father was about to pay i saw shampoos and soaps was displayed on the cashier desk my eyes were focusing on the shampoos and suddenly wide opened because you know what i mean right. I was like "WHAT IS THAT? IS THAT SHAMPOO? HERBAL SHAMPOO? WAIT..WHAT FOR IS THAT? REDUCING HAIRLOSS? DANDRUFFS? RECOMMENDED FOR WOMEN WHO USE HIJAB? SERIOUSLYYYY". Yeah, maybe just like that. And after shopping, when i was checking the items we've bought in the bag,  i saw some sample of soaps and shampoos. YES THEY ARE. SOAPS AND SHAMPOOS GUYS. *sorry for the overreaction im just really happy hehe*

The brand is "Herbalove"... i've never heard that before. But from the packaging i can say that it is local product. It says "herbal", so it is really interested me. And the good thing is, it has registered in BPOM! Yes, every product MUST HAVE REGISTERED to it, as a prove that the products are safe to use and dont cause harm for people. It gains my interest so much. Then i directly checked the testimonials on the internet and surprisingly it got good compliments! Eventho it got only 3 reviews hehe..but it made me happy enough lol. Seriously even I became more curious then... it makes me wanna try the products sooner. And then I checked the price on Shopee and Tokopedia (yes both of them are my favourites online shop website/app) and it is neither cheap nor expensive. And the explanation of the product said that "because this is herbal products, you can use this everyday and it can detox your hair and your skin head from the chemical substances because of your shampoo before". I was like, what? So shampoo can do the detoxification too? :( 

I hope this is going to be success. Because ive tried some of shampoo brands and it didnt give me satisfaction at all. I've tried cl*ar, h**d & sh*******, and others that arent that popular but claims can solve hair problems such as hairloss and dandruffs. Pfft. What a bullshit.

Really, I have a high hope on this. I hope my hair will get better sooner, aamiin..