Kamis, 15 Juni 2017

Nothing. Just Unimportant Thoughts in Mind.

She was alone.
Sitting and thinking about what would she do next day.
What would be happening and would she become happy with it.
She just sat quietly, starring up to the magnificent night sky, wondering someday she would become the happiest person on earth.
Dreaming about having a friend that would willingly hear her unnecessary rambling whenever she would talk to.

No, she didn't blame God at all.
She was poor but a good girl, indeed. 
She kept patiently waited, waited for the right time that God would embrace her.
Comfort her.
Let her free from everything that is burdening her shoulders.

Until, he suddenly came and sat next to her.
He was a stranger to her, startled her a little but fortunately she could bear it down.
But deep down inside her heart, she was completely happy.
She was smiling, but she hid it from him.
She would like to speak, but then he surprisingly said,

"Excuse me girl, but what problems that bring you up here?"

She became terribly shy. She just didn't know what would she say then.

"I just moved 2 days ago. To be honest I just pass this road, observe this new neighborhood for me and suddenly I see you sitting here in the middle of night. I think that's strange so I just come up."

She kept in silence. She was confused and nervous, but really, she would like to speak.
That was the first time for her getting someone asking for her situation.

"Hmm sorry, I think I disturb you. Nice to meet you so.."

"Wait! I'm sorry." she stopped him before he left. Fortunately, he came back and sat next to her again.

"I.. I just want to relax myself. I've got so much pain in the ass that was striking me these days."

"Oh," he said. He was changing his sitting position, and continued the words. "Sorry to hear that, but actually I got so."

"Are you kidding me?!" she was shocked. "I thought I'm the one."

Then..the hours passed, day changed, a lot of things were saying till they forgot about everything. Tears, laughs, they were enjoying every minute of it till they forgot to end it up and say goodbye.

"Wow, how fast the day changed, isn't it?" she smiled brightly. She was never feeling as happy as before.

"Yeah," he answered, "I think I've got my eyes puffy now, sleepy-head."

They laughed again, together.

Then, he was standing up, stretching up his arms and looking towards her.

"So, should we meet again next time?" ask him politely.

"Anytime." she smiled.

Well, that's the best days yet in her life. 
Of course her mood suddenly lifted up that encouraged her to do everything cheerfully.
Until she was remembered that she forgot to ask his name and his address.

"Oh, such a fool!" fumed her. But, that was already happened. Then, she was breathed a sigh of calmness, and thought about God has heard her prayers.

Yes, she was crying, and that were tears of joy.
She couldn't stop praise the Lord, show how gratitude she was of His mercy after such a long time waiting patiently.
Then she knew, having a friend is such a countless blessing that she couldn't even ask for more.
Then she slapped her cheek, try to convince herself that it weren't a dream.
Thank God, she said smilingly, made her believe in Him more.

God will always remember and love everyone who is remembering Him.
And also -- the ones who are patient too.
So, keep patient, then God will love you, and grant you with happiness and blessings that no men could ever give!

Senin, 12 Juni 2017

- sorry not sorry -

Hi, long time no see. I'm in a long holiday right now so I can relax myself and writing something again on this. You know, I feel like something is kinda propping up inside me, and I'm very uncomfortable with it. Many things weird are happening nowadays, and I know what I would say subsequently is not appropriate for some of you who read this, but for me, this is terribly weird and I still can't accept this and I don't even believe that (maybe) most or some of people are feel that this weird thing (for me) are such a privilege for some other people. You must be wondering about what kind of weird thing I'm talking about, right?

Hmm, believe me, I'm a little bit uncertain about what I would say after this, but, this thing is really want to explode from my mind, ugh. Asdfjgjsaj, sorry not sorry, all of you must have heard about LGBT, right? I don't want to explain about whether it is, but, you know, I'm so damn confused why there are so many people who think that LGBT is nothing matter? You may say that, "Because love doesn't consider of age, nation, color, gender, and so on. Love is feeling. Why do you give it limits?" but, gender? Like, seriously? Are you joking me? Yes, if you are a boy, you can love the other boys as brothers, not making them as your lover, i think it's a big mistake. How can you get married with someone who have the same sex as you? How can you make family, children? Then, you can say that you can get children by adopt them? Oh my, I'm sure God must be hate that. Maybe, some of you will not accept my opinion, but I do believe that I'm standing in a right way to ignore LGBT as a right thing. You may say that I don't appreciate the human rights, but LGBT? No. I thing that's such a sickness of soul that must be healed. Sorry for the bad words. If there are some LGBT people who read this, I respect you, but sorry if my opinion is not the same as you. I don't hate you, don't get me wrong. I'm just confused because I don't even find the good things from those things, I'm confused that there is some other straight people who fight for the existence of LGBT people. I believe that all of religion in this world prohibit LGBT. In my religion, God create men and women to become partners, but if you think that LGBT is a thing that is given by God, it is a "destiny", yeah, I think I agree with it, but if you are devoted to your religion, know the gospel about your religion, you must be knowing that it its wrong. and I bet you'll try to heal and avoid it.

Really, guys, I don't hate you. Fyi, I do love Queen, the greatest British Rock Band that I've ever known. You know, the lead vocalist of the band, Freddie Mercury, was a bisex. Actually I'm not really sure if he was bisex or gay, but the right thing is he was a part of LGBT. And now, he was dead because of Aids, almost 36 years ago in November. And i'm really disappointed about that. Disappointed because I cant feel the hype of Queen because I was born in the late generation, and also because he is a bisex. I was like, "why cant he only love women?" but someday when I saw the article on the internet, the article said that freddie was actually like to love and being loved by women (that's why he has an ex girlfriend and still be the best friend and the most loving person of him until his death), but when it came to "physical needs" i mean, sex, he could only enjoy it when he did it with men. And really, I was shocked. And I think, that is because of the influences of his surroundings that made him became like that. I think, becoming a celebrity isn't that good as long as we can protect ourselves from every bad influence. World of fame is "scary" and also "dangerous", you know. Sometimes it's also deceiving. Once you're trapped in the nets, you must be hard to be free.

Yes, and fortunately, I am from a country that the majority of the people are believing in a religion, Islam, that is banning LGBT a lot, because there are some surah in Alquran that are talking about the despicable thing about LGBT, and I do believe with it. Really, LGBT aren't good. That means you're disrespecting God. Don't hear the preacher of your religion if what they are talking based on their own desire, but believe them if their talks are according to the holy book of your religion. So, the right thing is, read the holy book (for Islam it is Alquran), not the preacher, cause men can do wrong.

So that's all I wanna tell. Basically I've got a deep respect if you're part of LGBT, I just can't accept it as the right thing btw. And you must have respect on my opinion too. I don't mean to share hate also, I just wanna share about my opinion. Sorry, no offended feeling, please. I hope that we all doing well, happy, and become a better person soon. Amen.

Regards,

Zahra NN

Sabtu, 10 Juni 2017

Story about my hair problem :(

Hi guys. I just wanna talk something about my problem. I think this is quite severe and disturbing me for years and i just really sad that i cant solve it til now :(

You know, my problem is about my hair. I've got really bad hairloss since i was in junior high school (maybe) i just cant remember since when but actually it has been a long time that it annoys me so bad. Eventhough it dont make me bald (oh God please dont let that happen-_-naudzubillah) but my hair keep falling and it makes my room so dirty-_- everytime i enter my room i always see the hair on the floor, the bed, oh it bothers me so much. Another problem is that my skin head is really itchy i dont know if it is because of dandruffs but when i see my skin head closer i just didnt find them. Yes i had them before really bad but now fortunately it is gone. But im not really sure i dont know. I just afraid that they still there -_- thats why i was confused whenever i chose sort of shampoo products--is it for reducing hairloss or dandruffs.

And yesterday, i was going to the GC with my family and attending the Anne Avantie's batik fair and when my father was about to pay i saw shampoos and soaps was displayed on the cashier desk my eyes were focusing on the shampoos and suddenly wide opened because you know what i mean right. I was like "WHAT IS THAT? IS THAT SHAMPOO? HERBAL SHAMPOO? WAIT..WHAT FOR IS THAT? REDUCING HAIRLOSS? DANDRUFFS? RECOMMENDED FOR WOMEN WHO USE HIJAB? SERIOUSLYYYY". Yeah, maybe just like that. And after shopping, when i was checking the items we've bought in the bag,  i saw some sample of soaps and shampoos. YES THEY ARE. SOAPS AND SHAMPOOS GUYS. *sorry for the overreaction im just really happy hehe*

The brand is "Herbalove"... i've never heard that before. But from the packaging i can say that it is local product. It says "herbal", so it is really interested me. And the good thing is, it has registered in BPOM! Yes, every product MUST HAVE REGISTERED to it, as a prove that the products are safe to use and dont cause harm for people. It gains my interest so much. Then i directly checked the testimonials on the internet and surprisingly it got good compliments! Eventho it got only 3 reviews hehe..but it made me happy enough lol. Seriously even I became more curious then... it makes me wanna try the products sooner. And then I checked the price on Shopee and Tokopedia (yes both of them are my favourites online shop website/app) and it is neither cheap nor expensive. And the explanation of the product said that "because this is herbal products, you can use this everyday and it can detox your hair and your skin head from the chemical substances because of your shampoo before". I was like, what? So shampoo can do the detoxification too? :( 

I hope this is going to be success. Because ive tried some of shampoo brands and it didnt give me satisfaction at all. I've tried cl*ar, h**d & sh*******, and others that arent that popular but claims can solve hair problems such as hairloss and dandruffs. Pfft. What a bullshit.

Really, I have a high hope on this. I hope my hair will get better sooner, aamiin..

Selasa, 01 Maret 2016

2016's First Post *YAY*

Hello! This is my very first time in this year to post again since 4 years ago. Soo exciting! Aaand sadly, i should admit that i had abandoned this blog for such a long time ugh. But no problem, at least now I am opening my blog again and giving a little treatment to freshen up my blog yay! *clapclap* how does my blog? Pretty right? ahahah *grin* Actually..... i cant design my blog as good as other bloggers did, at least ive tried my best tho.. Hmm.. the result's not really bad, isn't it? 

Anyway, I am a college student now. It feels like...i've just entered high school few days ago. And i can't really admit myself that i am almost 19 this year. Praise the Lord cause he has given me this beautiful life with ups and downs so that i must be calm and patient to face it. Aah i almost forget that i am studying in architecture and happy with it. Even there is so many tasks that have given to me as an architecture student but as long as i enjoy it, i am sure that i can pass everything and will get the best thing in the future.

Most people know that studying in architecture is not that easy and not so many people want to study in architecture. Yep, i should tell you--especially for those who want to study in this major--there is A LOT of assignments that you will get. No sleep. No eat. No fun, LYING. Nah--but seriously, i mean, yes you will have no sleep particularly if you get difficult task (i say it difficult because not every assignment in architecture you can finish in short period (short=1 day-week) and learning architecture means you learn about art or creativity and everyone's perception about it is different). Studying architecture is not about being heedful to whether you like or dislike, but the very important thing is, you should be heedful to everyone's perception. Because being an architect is 'forcing' you to serve everyone's taste. You can't force someone to like whether you like because everyone's taste is different. But if you have tried the best to make something great and you believe yourself that your own result is worthy, i believe that everyone who see it will appreciate it and the lecturer will give you good score. Aaand if you get difficult assignments and you need a lot of time to finish it, i bet you will forget to eat and can't do anything fun. I mean forget is not really forget but, you will override it (especially if you don't finish your assignment earlier/postpone your assignment to do unnecessary things so you don't have any time left). Oh! I should tell you that you must learn to manage your time because it is a MAJOR thing you should have. If you can manage your time, i am sure that you still can sleep, eat, and do another things because you've already finished your assignments. Those who can manage time mostly don't like to postpone every task/activity that is important. They like to sort their assignments/activities, which one is more important, which thing they should finish first.

HAHA I am just realized that i've explained a lot about architecture.............. pfftt sorry. Oh ya! I should tell you that being a college student is fun! I've gotten so many friends from different cities of mine. As I said before, even there is so much assignments that you''ll get, and your sleep time will be decreased, as long as you can manage your time, I am sure that you can deal with it. Well...... see ya!

Rabu, 16 Mei 2012

Hai!

Assalamu'alaikum...

Kangen nih udah lama ga utak atik blog -_- pdhl uda bnyk bgt cerita yg sbnrnya mau aku tuang di blog-ku satu-satunya ini. Yap, bnyk bgt. Smpe lupa cerita yg mana yg mau aku post di sini. Ya Allah -_-a

Oiya, btw, prnh ga sih kalian ngrasain yg namanya 'dibales' sm Allah? ._. Pasti ada lah ya di antara kalian yg prnh ngrasain hal itu. Nah, buat aku pribadi, aku sering ngrasain ini. Hmm, cukup sering, sih ._. Maklum saya manusia yg bnyk dosa ._.v tapi serius, aku cukup sering ngrasain yg namanya dibales sm Allah. Jadi tentu lah aku punya lumayan bnyk kisah seputar aku dibales sm Allah.

Jujur aja, masa-masa paling alim di saat SMP ini pas aku masih kelas 8. Knp? Karena menurutku, aku trbilang cukup religius di masa kls 8. Waktu itu, aku cukup sering cerita atau konsultasi soal keagamaan pd salah seorang guru ngajiku di sekolah yg betul2 kukagumi. Tapi skrg, kebiasaan itu sudah tak prnh kulakukan krna bertemu beliau saja jarang, ditambah lagi aku uda ga diajar sm beliau lagi. Beliau ngajar sirah, sih ._. Nah, waktu kls 8 tuh, aku cukup rajin shalat tahajjud. Hampir tiap hari aku shalat tahajjud, krna emg waktu itu aku ngrasa ada sesuatu yg ngedorong aku untuk shalat tahajjud terus, jd sebisa mungkin aku slalu membiasakan diri untuk shalat tahajjud tiap hari (bukan maksud sombong ato gmn, tapi itu yg emg aku rasain ._.v). Prnah waktu itu aku nggak shalat tahajjud, dan rasanya kyk berdosa bgt krna aku kan uda mencoba membiasakan diri shalat tahajjud tiap hari. Nggak cuma itu, aku juga membiasakan diri untuk shalat fardhu tepat waktu. Sama seperti shalat tahajjud, ada dorongan di dlm diriku yg membuatku untuk shalat tepat waktu tiap harinya. Klo smpe terlambat shalat, walaupun trlambatnya juga ga banget, aku pasti ngrasa brsalah sm Allah. Nyesel gitu rasanya. Takut ntar ada apa2.  Aku juga membiasakan baca Alquran tiap hari satu 'ain. Sama seperti lainnya, aku akan ngrasa brsalah bila aku tak sampai membaca Alquran. Nggak hanya itu, aku juga suka ngingetin org buat shalat, entah knp. Menurutku ngingetin org shalat itu nyenengin bgt, haha (maaf ya klo aku aneh -_-v). Oiya sbg tmbhn, walau sbnrnya gaada hubungannya sm alim sih, klo dibandingin sm kls 9 ini, aku lebih nggetu bljrnya kls 8 ._. Gatau knp, pdhl kls 9 adalah masa paling sulit di antara masa2 lainnya-_-

Dan..... apakah kalian tau apa balesan dr semua itu? Mnrtku, Allah jd sering mengabulkan doaku. Sbg contoh kecil misalnya, prnh waktu itu stlh shalat isya' aku brdoa minta dibangunkan pukul tiga pagi untuk shalat tahajjud. Beberapa lama kmudian, aku tertidur. Begitu bangun, tepat pukul tiga pagi aku terbangun dan melaksanakan shalat tahajjud. Begitu bersyukurnya aku, Allah mau mengabulkan doaku. Sbg contoh lain, prnh waktu itu di masa2 ujian, entah UTS, UAS, ato UKK aku lupa, aku brdoa stiap usai shalat, "...ya Allah, smoga nilai hamba tdk ada yg remidi, smoga nilai yg hamba raih 80 ke atas, ya Allah..." Dan trnyata benar, alhamdulillah, entah krna jerih payah ato krna apa, doaku trkabul, Begitu senangnya aku, krna apa yg aku inginkan trnyta tercapai. Aku jd lebih bersyukur dan yakin kalo Allah itu sayang sama umatnya. Pikirku waktu itu aku juga tmbh yakin, klo aku pasti mampu melewati masa-masa kelas 9. Ehm, sbnrnya balasanNya ga cuma itu sih, tapi, cukup cuma itu aja ya hehe'-'v

Memasuki kelas 9, aku jd smakin nyantai, krna aku uda kepedean bgt waktu prtama kali pake bet merah klo aku bkln bisa menempuh masa2 sulit kelas 9 dr awal smpe akhir. Awal2 ngrasain jd anak trtua di SMP tuh aku dan temen2 seangkatanku lainnya lgsg dihadapkan pd TO Diagnostik. Deg-degan sih, tapi ya namanya aku sombong lah, ngrasa bisa bgt dpt nilai bagus ya aku cukup nyantai. Aku bljr sih, tapi ya ga nggetu2 bgt. Dan pas ngrjain, trnyta soalnya susah -_-" dan pas liat hasilnya, begitu shock-nya aku. Knp? Kan TO-nya ada dua sesi tuh, sesi pertama aku ga lulus, dan yg sesi ke-2 aku lulus. Walau nilainya juga ga sbrapa, tapi aku seneng. Berawal dr itu, aku jd lupa diri. Aku jd suka ngeremehin, sombong, suka seenaknya sendiri, gmpg terpengaruh, suka kepedean, ngrasa plg hebat, dll. Kdg aku jd suka shalat ga tepat waktu, aku juga jd ga sering shalat tahajjud ga kyk dulu pas kls 8. Bljr pun aku ga se-nggetu kls 8 krna aku ngremehin. Tapi alhamdulillah kebiasaan baca Alquran masih kulakuin smpe skrg dan 'ain-nya pun kutambahin. Smoga kebiasan ini terus bertahan smpe akhir hayatku, amiin...

Tau sendiri kan, bagi yg kls 9 ato yg prnh ngrasain jd anak kls 9 tuh perjuangannya pasti berat. Bnyk try out lah, hrs menuhin nilai lah bagi yg ngrasa nilainya masih kosong, uda gitu endingnya UNAS. Tapi di awal2 aku jd anak kls 9, sumpah aku nyante bgt. Jarang bljr, klo bljr pun ga nggetu sama sekali. Selalu aja ada yg bikin aku terpengaruh untuk melakukan kegiatan lain di saat aku sdg bljr. Dan balasanNya sungguh mengena di hati ;_; di setiap try out, di saat anak2 dg mudahnya bisa meraih average 8, slalu aja aku raih average 7. Ya pernah sih aku ngeraih average 8, tapi juarang pol-_- di saat temen2 dg mudahnya bisa ngeraih nilai mat ato IPA 9, aku plg 6 ato 7 -_- sedih bgt emg, dan selama try out sblm intensif aku selalu aja gitu. Efek lainnya, Allah jd jarang kabulin doaku, bnyk bgt masalah nimpa, nilai2ku jd jelek, kena remidi dg nilai yg nyerempet, susah bangun buat shalat tahajjud, dll. ._. Stres bgt sumpah waktu itu, apalagi mau UNAS, WOY! zzz... Sempet nangis aku saking stresnya, di saat aku tau aku remidi dua pelajaran dan itu aku ga ngeduga banget remidinya. Ya Allah, betapa sombongnya aku;_; uda ngeremehin bnyk bgt;_; aku juga smpt curhat ke wali kelas soal uneg2ku, smpe aku gakuat nahan nangis. Betapa malu skaligus sedihnya aku, krna aku juga seorang ketua kelas, aku jd ngrasa malu bgt gabisa kasih contoh yg baik buat temen2ku.

Aku jd bener2 galau. Aku jd mulai negative thinking, mikir klo Allah uda ga sayang sm aku lagi. Astaghfirullah. Naudzubillahimindzalik. Tapi aku jd lebih introspeksi diri. Begitu tau tergolong kelas apa saat intensif baru dimulai, aku jd ngerti, trnyta usahaku slama ini bener2 blm maksimal. Trlalu santai. Aku nyesel bgt dan bnyk bgt yg aku pikirin waktu itu. Terutama aku nyesel sm Ujian Sekolah. Aku ngrasa usahaku nggak maksimal waktu ujian tersebut berlangsung. Sedih rasanya begitu menyadari itu. Entah brp hasil yg kuraih, smoga hasilnya masih bisa membuatku tersenyum.

Sjk saat itu, aku jd pgn bgt berubah. Smpe skrg aku jd lebih introspeksi diri, mencoba untuk menghilangkan sifat2 burukku. Porsi belajarku jd kutingkatkan, yg awalnya leha2 skrg aku jd lebih merhatiin guru2 di sekolah. Aku juga mengulang kebiasaanku dulu, yaitu shalat tahajjud, shalat fardlu tepat waktu, dan ngaji. Krna aku nggak mau gagal di masa SMP ini. Aku pgn bgt buat ortuku bangga. Aku pgn bisa meraih apa yg aku impi2kan. Aku pgn berhasil. Dan satu lagi, aku pgn bgt berubah jd pribadi yg lebih baik lagi. Itu wajib bgt. Krna menurutku, tak lengkap rasanya bila sukses tapi berakhlak buruk. Oleh sebab itulah, semoga secepatnya, aku bisa mnjdi pribadi yg lebih baik dr sblmnya. Oh iya, berhubung hasil UNAS-nya belum keluar, semoga aku lulus dg nilai yg memuaskan, nilai yg sempurna, dan smoga aku bisa mnjdi lulusan trbaik dan bisa melanjutkan ke SMA Negeri RSBI impianku O:) amiiin... WISH ME LUCK!!!

Senin, 14 November 2011

Unforgettable 10 November

Empat hari yg lalu, tepatnya 10 November yg lalu, adalah hari yg ga terlupain buatku. Pasalnya, 9G menang 2 lomba bero!!! \m/ Gile, ternyata usaha yg udah dilakuin sebelumnya memenangkan hasil. Walau ga menang di lomba busana sama atraksi, tapi 9G menang pas 'Heroic on the Road' sama bazaar jeeh... B-)\m/ Sueneng ga karuan pas tau 9G menang 2 :') aku ga mksud sombong lho ._. Yang paling ga terlupain pas heroic on the road, karena itu seru gila bero! Pengen ngulang lagi, tapi gamau menanggung malu untuk yg kedua kalinya -_- alhamdulillah kenangan pas heroic on the road telah diabadikan dlm foto, di antaranya ...







Bazaar juga tak terlewatkan!





Bener-bener unforgettable lah pokoknya! Pengen ngulangin masa-masa seperti ini lagi sama 9G :')

Rabu, 24 Agustus 2011

Hey You!

hey, did you know?
and I just wanna say that ...
 
 why? because ...
and aa...
and ...
and also ...


God ... 
because ... 
 please,
but sorry, 

 but I just wanna you know that the truth is ...